a hug from beyond...

i have been feeling very stressed for the past 11 months...  things started rolling down hill when mr petite told me he was seeing a lawyer about a divorce which he filed for less than a week after.  and things have continued to roll down hill picking up other debris on the way...

so at the moment i am under a gigantic snowball of stress and even though i know there are people who love and care about me, i have been feeling like i am in this winter storm all by myself.... 

but today as i was begrudgingly headed out for the yearly family rebellion on moms side of the family - the first one without mr. petite - i was thinking of my dad.  his family rarely had family rebellions because none of them could be in the same space for longer than a half hour without some sort of fight ensuing - verbal or physical....

and, how my uncle recently passed into that great family reunion in the sky where no doubt he and my dad and my uncles and aunts who went before are able to spend an endless amount of time together in the same space - without episode...  i bet they are probably still laughing about old times and confessions regarding what sort of fishing lure they really caught that huge fish on so long ago...

because it really doesn't matter so much any more.  and love truly IS enough.

i was grinning at that thought when i looked up from my driveway and saw something very peculiar in the sky.

peculiar enough that it warmed my heart.  it even made me feel like part of an entire universe of things that i have not and can not ever imagine with my small human brain or heart...

things that i may need to wait for that great family reunion in the sky to figure out...

the point is; i stood there looking at the sky knowing that no matter what i have to endure - or why - i am loved by something far greater than myself and i would be wise not to forget that...

as silly as it may sound i felt embraced and cared for...

so i went into the house and got my camera to document this...



my great hug from beyond...

you can believe what you will, but i believe this was a huge hug just for me from the great beyond....

and dad,  i love you more!

8 comments:

  1. Hey Eolist! This was a timely reminder and a proof of faith; you're never alone, despite how it feels x

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  2. Awww....what a wonderful post. I am glad it made you happy to see that...you deserve it xoxox

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  3. I'm so glad you took the time to photograph the hug and to write about it here. That's you hugging back. All the best.

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  4. Lovely! Those moments are precious.

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  5. I'll bet that felt GOOD. No snowball could last for too long with that kind of sky looking down on it.

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