i just called to say i love you

my daughter called late last night.

we chatted about her new house.

we chatted about my well being and hers.

we chatted about kids and life and weather.

and then she said;

mom, the reason i really called is because i needed to tell you just how much i love you and dad and how much i appreciate knowing you are there for me. knowing without a doubt how much you love me. i had to. today i was at a funeral and all i could think about was making sure you knew without a doubt exactly how much i love you.

a few weeks ago her friend was married and his father was dancing at his wedding. a few days ago his father died. suddenly and without warning. he was 53.

life changes in the blink of an eye when we least expect it and we're left to up the pieces as best we can and move on with only the memories.

i just called to say i love you . . . something so simple but so profound.

go ahead. pick up that phone and let them know. be that fool you think it might make you. you may never get another chance.

Intentionally Breaking The Chain


The Honest [S]crap Award

award rules and regulation - fine print - ie: Honest [s]Crap
The Honest [S]crap: this award must be shared! The recipient has to tell 10 true things about themselves in their blog that no one else knows. The recipient has to pass along this prestigious award to 10 more bloggers. Those 10 bloggers all have to be notified they have been given this award. Those 10 bloggers should link back to the blog that awarded them. Those 10 bloggers must then share this award as instructed via this Honest [s]Crap fine print

An Award that comes with a chain. Or perhaps it's a knot?

Reminds me of all the chained necklaces i have been presented with in my lifetime…

The necklaces were never gifts mind, but challenges;

Eoli, this necklace has a knot in it. The jeweler says it’s a lost cause but my friend’s friend's friend says you can untangle it for me. If you can I will give you…

Could i untangle it? Yes. I could.

In fact, I don’t recall ever being faced with a chain that i could not unravel.

Did I get anything in return? Nope.


Just a chain of friend’s of friend’s of friend’s who said I could unravel anything the jeweler couldn’t.

And now i find myself presented with this amazing award which comes on a chain. Though the jeweler may have overlooked it, I can see the knot quite clearly.

Perplexing knot it is too, because i see it's intended beauty but i can also see the rust underneath. i know that it is actually a knot of shame disguised as something worthwhile and fun. It's a chain that wants to lure me into believing that i cannot break it because if I do I will feel guilt of some sort.

But it’s wrong.

I know without a doubt that I will be purposely cutting this chain and letting the links fall where they may.

Why? well, because i believe that sharing blessings because you want to is a wonderful - and even noble - thing, but doing so because you’ve been told how and why you must simply creates an awkward situation for both parties.

And me? i want no part in making any party feel awkward.




Damn that felt good!

edit: Ten True Things About Myself That Nobody Knows:
1. i have no secrets
2. i miss my cat
3. i do not like dogs
4. i am a survivor
5. i dream in color
6. i find joy in tiny things
7. i laugh every single day
8. i have many scars
9. i hate flying
10. i wish i were younger...