the following is not mine. it's from a book that i quite enjoyed and it's just here for safe keeping.
for some reason which i don't understand yet, it spoke to me.
won't tell you here where i got it from so kudo's to you if you already know. ;)
i hope its clear that i was really really trying not to be weird about the way things were. all the time i was telling myself; just enjoy it for what it is. don't be weird. don't get all screwed up over something that isn't.